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Broken Walls and Road Blocks

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By Home with Tracy
I am slowly reading through the book Feminine Appeal Seven Virtues of a Godly Wife and Mother by Carolyn Mahaney.  The chapter I am currently reading is on Kindness.  In this chapter it addresses the hindrances of kindness.  Hindrance number one is anger.  Hindrance number two is bitterness.  When I started to read the section on bitterness, I did not think it would have the effect on me that it did. 

Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice.  And be kind to one another, even as God in Christ forgave you.  Ephesians 4:31-32

The section on bitterness talks about how hurt feelings can rapidly turn into bitterness.  When we think of how we have been wronged over and over again we tend to go into self-pity mode.  I am extremely guilty of this.  I have let my childhood hurt feelings turn into bitterness which then effected my adult relationships.  I then let my adult hurt feelings turn into more bitterness.  It has become a never ending cycle that needs to stop.

My bitterness has caused my wall against sin to break.  With that broken wall, there are places for sin to easily get in.  I need to repair the wall the only way I know how, by asking God for strength.  I know that I cannot do it alone. 

Who am I not to forgive those that have sin against me.  I am no better than anyone yet God has forgive me for all of my many sins.  Why is it so hard to me to forgive others?  Bitterness has become my roadblock to serving Him.

I need to repair my wall with the great strength of Jesus Christ so that I may go out and serve Him.  I have been convicted that I need to stop living selfishly and being caught up in my own little issues. I need to start repairing my walls, thinking more of others and living for Him, for His work and for HIS GLORY!

Lord, I pray you give me strength every day to repair and strengthen my wall against sin.  I pray that I show kindness to others as you have commanded me to do.

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