Home with Tracy

Have you ever had a day where you want to give up? Where you think that it would be easier NOT being a Christian? Sadly, I must admit, today is one of those days for me! Today is a day that I am angry and if I am not careful, that anger will turn into bitterness, which will turn in to sin. If I am not careful, I will turn that anger on my husband and my children. It is okay to be angry, as long as you heal, and as long you do not take it out on those around you. "Be angry, and do not sin". do not let the sun go down on your wrath. Ephesians 5:23 My husband and I have been married for 7 1/2 years. We were suppose to close on our first home by today and we were excited because not only was it a new home, but we qualified for the first time home buyers rebate. That rebate would be enough to pay our mortgage for a whole year! How great is that! Needless to say, it did not work out and we still do not have a home to move in to. I was suppose to be leaving for Romania in 10 d

Since I have been home, I have realized that little mirrors are always around me. These little mirrors are my children. Although they do resemble me physically, each in their own way, that is not the mirror image I am speaking of. These little mirrors are images of my temperament, language, reactions, all the ways that I act, talk, move. As I watch my children, I am sometimes overjoyed by the way they treat each other and others around us. I think "great! my kindness is rubbing off on them" other times I see the way they act to each other and to situations and it is very unpleasant. My first thought in those situations is "where did they learn that behavior?" that is when God whispers in my ear "don't you remember acting like that just yesterday?" Being home I have had to do a great amount of self reflecting. God created us in His own image and wants us to live and love like Him. He wants us to teach our children to live and love like Him. "

..."Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. Whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me. Matthew 18:3-5 NKJV I have recently been blessed with becoming a stay-at-home mom again, after working for a year. My children and I are trying to get use to each other again. I am trying to set up some structure in our home. This is not going as well as I had thought it would. Last week my children were not listening to me, not following directions and being very disrespectful. When I would tell them not to do something that could harm them, they would do it anyways. When I would tell them something that would make the task they were doing easier, they would ignore my advice and go about doing it their own way, the hard way. They simply did not want to obey. Somewhere in the m