Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Have you ever had a day where you want to give up? Where you think that it would be easier NOT being a Christian? Sadly, I must admit, today is one of those days for me! Today is a day that I am angry and if I am not careful, that anger will turn into bitterness, which will turn in to sin. If I am not careful, I will turn that anger on my husband and my children. It is okay to be angry, as long as you heal, and as long you do not take it out on those around you.

"Be angry, and do not sin". do not let the sun go down on your wrath. Ephesians 5:23

My husband and I have been married for 7 1/2 years. We were suppose to close on our first home by today and we were excited because not only was it a new home, but we qualified for the first time home buyers rebate. That rebate would be enough to pay our mortgage for a whole year! How great is that! Needless to say, it did not work out and we still do not have a home to move in to.

I was suppose to be leaving for Romania in 10 days. That, unfortunately, didn't working out either. I thought for sure God was calling me to go. I was going to leave my children for a whole week. I was nervous, but so excited!

I have been applying for transcription jobs at home and have been lucky enough to have two respond back to me and offering me testing. How great is that! Unfortunately, I did not test well enough to get either job. I don't understand, I have over 8 years of transcription experience and my home office is equipped to start today.

These days are tests of my faith. A trial some would say. I was once told that faith is defined as:

"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1

I must keep my faith and remember that God has created me with a purpose and a plan. He is the only one who knows that purpose and plan. I must have faith so that I can live out His perfect purpose and plan for my life.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." James 1:2-4

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