faithful journey through struggles
As I look back at the person I was when I started this blog, what we were going through as a family, what my attitude was, I am thankful that God is a God of grace, forgiveness and mercy. I am thankful that He changed me.
I struggled as a wife. I didn't want to be one.
I struggled as a mom. I didn't know how to be a mom that God wanted me to be. I struggled with not being good enough.
I struggled as a child of God. I didn't turn to Him daily. I didn't have an intentional relationship with Him.
But then the more I thought about changing my blog URL, I realized I don't want to change it. I don't want to forget where I was. I don't want to forget who I was. I don't want to forget how far I've come.
I also realized that I may not have the same struggles, but I still have daily struggles.
I struggle to be the wife that God wants me to be.
I struggle to be the mom that God wants me to be.
I struggle to be the child of God, He wants me to be.
I am a sinner, daily, saved by grace.
My struggles to be those things are on a much different level.
My struggle to be a wife is different because now I want to be a wife. But not just a wife, I want to be the wife that my husband needs me to be. I want to be a wife that encourages my husband. I want my husband to know that I am thankful he works hard outside of our home so I can be at home with our children.
My struggle to be a mom is different because I now know the mom that God wants me to be. I am blessed to have the privilege of raising, caring for, teaching, loving these children. I am blessed to be homeschooling them. My struggle is to remember each day is a gift. My struggle is to teach them by example. My struggle is to speak only in kind, soft tones and words.
My struggle to be a child of God is different now because I have a relationship with Him. I know what I am supposed to do. I know that I need to spend daily time with Him. My struggle is to remember that my time, is His. There is nothing more important that should keep me from spending time with Him daily.
So, I've decided not to change my blog URL. I am going to keep it just as it is. It will serve as a constant reminder of where I've been, where I am now and where I am going.